| Chapter One
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| | question remained: what did he want in
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| | return, if not money?
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| | "You help me, I will help you, and the
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| He had been in Huancayo for two weeks,
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| | car ill not cost u a dollar."
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| hand not really got used to it; the Plaza
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| | He was becoming a broken record,
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| de Arms carefree composure he liked.
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| | repeating himself.
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| In the countries he had visited-which
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| | They both started walking back to the
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| were many-few were lit up like this
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| | plaza, side by side, passing 'Koky's'
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| church. Yet he been told, and was aware
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| | restaurant,
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| the side streets were to be feared at
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| | Chapter Three
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| night (ah, yes in deed, there was a
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| difference between day and night in this
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| | "Wish we had time for a cup of coffee,"
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| Andean city); likened to the
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| | implied the Voice, "but I suppose we are
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| haunting-ness of the Dark Ages, with its
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| | both too much in a hurry."
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| cobblestone streets, and its Spanish
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| | "Coffee, yes, why not, I have a little
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| balconies. He had come form the 20th
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| | time to spare, if there is a place open
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| century, United States.
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| | at this hour of the night, or should I
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| | say morning."
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| The bus was a passenger vehicle; it was
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| | "There is a place I know of, they make
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| being loaded, he knew it was going to
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| | Huancayo Pancakes, as some American
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| leave by one O'clock this very day, leave
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| | called them, big as elephant ears, in hot
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| to go to Lima, Peru, through the Mantaro
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| | oil, and with ..."
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| Valley, and then the Andes, and onto the
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| | "Let's go..."
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| Imperial city of Kings. They put boxes
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| | "As I was about to say, it is an outside
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| upon boxes in the side hold of the bus,
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| | café of sorts, stools around a wooden
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| along with the baggage left on the
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| | table, a big umbrella for a roof, but you
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| outside of the bus, two men lifting up
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| | get what you pay for."
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| the heavy loads, baggage and boxes,
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| | Having said that, they both entered the
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| silently, as if they were on a mission,
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| | man's car that the Americano thought was
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| throwing them into the hold like sacks of
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| | a taxi, and they sat in the front, damp,
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| potatoes, tossing them into the deepest
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| | dark mildew smelling front seat.
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| part of the hold.
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| | "A tinge wet," commented the Americano.
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| The bus was being made ready for its trip
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| | ('He will fulfill my destiny')) both
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| to Lima, and the Huancayo rains had
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| | putting their faith in the hands of the
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| stared (December rains); the rains rose
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| | other.))
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| and descended from city to city, town-let
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| | He wanted the car, it was his salvation,
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| to town-let, village to village, black
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| | and the voice wanted what he wanted, an
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| clouds shifting all day long, drifting
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| | end to his dilemma-perhaps both would be
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| throughout the valley.
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| | saved once and for all by the other, this
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| The rains engulfed the whole region
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| | thought had entered both their heads,
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| (within a short period of time), from,
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| | they both (strangers and all) got sight
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| and to include Concection, to San
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| | of faith, in each other.
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| Jeranimo, Cajas, and Sapallanga, was
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| flooded, and the heavy downpour in
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| | The car circled around the plaza, down
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| Huancayo, flooded the street likewise.
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| | several streets and the headlights found
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| The rains were heavy, and the cities
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| | the outside dingy and grayish café- a
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| first stank, and then got swollen with
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| | few folks sitting on stools, eating those
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| the seepage of waist, especially in
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| | elephant ear-pancakes, and pouring some
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| Huancayo. He felt he was not all that
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| | liquor (hidden in their coat pockets)
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| safe in the rains, and wanted to get onto
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| | into their coffee cups.
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| the bus.
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| | You could hear the oil boiling, sizzling
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| | in a large heavy looking metal container,
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| Beyond the Andes had become the last hope
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| | over a small gas stove.
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| for an American fugitive, as he called
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| | "I don't know this part of Huancayo;" He
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| himself, a veteran of the Vietnam War
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| | told the driver, he was only acquainted
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| (know in Huancayo as the Americano).
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| | with the plaza are for the most part, and
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| Here he thought he felt safe, avoiding
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| | a few streets in El Tambo, where his
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| justice to keep his freedom, which could
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| | sister-in-law lived.
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| be purchased in Peru. This was the gate
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| | They left the car and sat and drank
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| to tolerance, so he called it, if it was
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| | coffee, ate a pancake, hot and greasy,
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| not to be had here, than where (?) He was
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| | but tasty.
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| lost for a plan 'B' perhaps condemned to
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| | The dark sky, and misty lit moon, gave a
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| be imprisoned in a concrete jungle in the
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| | somber silhouette to the mountains that
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| United States where his visa was a one
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| | rose up behind the city.
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| way ticket to Hell and freedom
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| | He looked over towards the mountains,
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| unobtainable. Only one thing mattered, a
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| | beyond them was freedom, Bolivia-(Bolivia
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| new identity, and here he found it.
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| | although were among the Andes), this was
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| He had blackmailed fate, married a
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| | his new vision, his plan 'C'.
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| Peruvian, found his way to Lima, changed
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| | "Yes," said the driver.
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| his name, got a residency card, and paid
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| | "With the car I can be in Bolivia in no
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| a few people off.
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| | time."
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| | He put his keys in his pocket and drank a
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| The Bus tickets were sold out, and he
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| | second cup of coffee.
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| could not pay even double the amount to
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| | "Let's go," said the Voice, "and get on
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| get another ticket (even too late to
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| | with it, get it over with, so you can get
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| bribe other passengers).
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| | on your way," then he pointed his finger
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| He had made his plans to move on, not
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| | towards 'Liberty Hill' saying abruptly,
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| sure where, but Lima would be a
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| | "that is where I want to go! We will not
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| centralized point to start, and then
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| | attract any attention there."
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| elsewhere, he was familiar with the city
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| | A moment passed, the cup of coffee was
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| slightly. This bus was the last way out
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| | finished, the driver looked up as if he
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| of the Andean city, on this holiday
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| | was visualizing something, then down, as
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| weekend. He was the only gringo, in
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| | if he was emotionally drained-a sigh came
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| Huancayo, and felt he was the only
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| | out of him, a long sigh, quiet sigh,
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| unescorted foreigner.
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| | said, "Do you believe in life after
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| He asked the bus driver if he could pay
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| | death?" he was looking at the perused
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| double fare, and sit in the isle. An
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| | when he asked that question.
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| absurd idea for even if he had talked the
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| | "I'd like to say I'm not sure, never
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| driver into it, allowing it, where would
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| | known anyone to come back from the dead
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| he sit-everyone had mounds of luggage by
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| | to explain its environment, but I'd like
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| their seats in the isles...but I suppose
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| | to believe there is a heaven and hell."
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| in desperation or despair one tries
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| | Chapter Four
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| anything.
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| (Haunted he was, and paranoid of
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| | As they drove up the hill to the Park, he
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| capture)) who knows what logic was
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| | earnestly said, "There is only one think
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| reasonable for his reality)).
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| | that can match poverty, and that is
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| Chapter Two
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| | death. It's been one hell of a life
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| | trying to survive. If there is a
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| It was early in the morning (3:00 AM),
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| | struggle to survive after death, I will
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| and the Plaza de Arms was almost deserted
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| | soon find it out."
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| -but for a vagabond (beggar in the
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| morning, vagrant at night, he had seen
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| | You could look down upon, and over and
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| him before), sleeping hunched in the
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| | throughout, the city of Huancayo, see its
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| doorway of a shop, across the street
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| | roof tops, see it all, all that was there
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| stood, Lugar Cathedral. The vagrant was
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| | to see that is, and at night, only
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| sleeping, hunched in tightly. He became
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| | lights, and shadows, and noisy cars,
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| aware of a second homeless soul, as he
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| | musical garbage trucks.
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| walked indecisively about, paced the
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| | The driver got out of the car, with a
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| plaza platform, and stared at the two
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| | sigh of relief, and a grinding of his
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| street people.
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| | teeth, said (after filling his lungs), "I
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| He took no further interest in the two
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| | am prepared."
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| down-and-out, as they wakeup and stared,
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| | The other man sat stone still in the
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| watching him pace. He kept his watch,
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| | right side car seat and thought ('...he
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| still fearful of the police, though he
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| | wants to go to sleep forever!')
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| had done no wrong in Peru.
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| | "My name is..." said the smaller man, and
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| Fearful, he kept in the shadowy areas of
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| | before he could give his name, the driver
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| the plaza, the cathedral. He walked about
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| | standing outside the car by the car door,
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| slowly, as if he were about to be
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| | said, "No, I don't want to know, just run
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| captured at any moment, while trying to
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| | me over, promise me you will, I'll turn
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| design a new plan.
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| | my back, walking down the road." (The
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| He stopped for a rest, heard steps behind
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| | keys were in the ignition, and the car
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| him, nearer and nearer they came, he then
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| | was running, and the big man was moving
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| started back up walking. If he got
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| | slowly down the road, as he said he would
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| arrested, he would be questioned, and his
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| | be, and he meant what he said).
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| wife would find out he was missing
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| | He nodded his head in dismay, trying to
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| (leaving), she was sleeping at her
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| | figure out what to do next. They were
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| sisters in El Tambo (a district of
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| | both happy, both had whet they wanted;
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| Huancayo), thinking all was well.
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| | both would get want they desired in a
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| | moment that is, providing a certain
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| He then disappeared down a side street, a
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| | criteria was met
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| very narrow cobblestone street, adjacent
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| | The big man turned around in surprise
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| to the plaza. Now those footsteps were
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| | (the car had not moved). His eyes said:
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| next to him. The shadow of the man behind
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| | what are you waiting for, but the Perused
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| him was large, larger than his.
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| | could not of course see his eyes, but he
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| "Are you lost?" said a voice in Spanish.
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| | felt them. ('He doesn't look like a man
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| He shook his head 'no' and kept on
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| | that wants to live, rather one that
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| walking (the street lights allowed the
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| | cannot kill himself, needs someone else
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| shadow to see).
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| | to do his dirty work for him.')) The
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| "Americano?" Indirectly, questioned the
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| | following moment of silence is
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| voice.
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| | nondescript.))
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| He didn't answer the voice, but continued
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| walking, looking at the red-shadowy tile
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| | 'Yes,' he told himself, thinking of the
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| roofs on the houses and the moon's glare.
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| | past, 'Vietnam, 1968, war, heavy. No one
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| (He knew very few people in the city
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| | understands war, how can they, I can't
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| spoke English, and he spoke very little
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| | even explain it to myself. That is why I
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| Spanish.)
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| | have to have these keys, have to go
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| "I'm not the police," said the voice, in
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| | someplace before someone finds me. If I
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| smooth English, with no British accent.
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| | try to explain it to anyone, tell someone
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| He did not believe the voice and
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| | about it, it all will come back to me,
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| continued his pace, although he did take
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| | and haunt me, it never becomes clear in
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| a quick look behind him, noticing the
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| | my mind.' (He shook his head out of his
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| large man was not wearing a police
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| | trance state); the large man was moving
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| uniform, but rather rough looking
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| | along, moving down the road, in the
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| civilian cloths, with a motley looking
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| | middle of the road, as he had said he
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| jacket on (gloomy like his facial
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| | would be.
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| appearance).
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| It was a chilly night, wet, light rain
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| | Big Man
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| intermittently. He had been arrested, he
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| | "Yes, he'll come, it's not hard to
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| told himself: too many times in America,
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| | understand him, and he's killed for fewer
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| he wasn't going to take any unnecessary
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| | reasons. He has violence in his eyes. The
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| chances now, not here, not anywhere. He
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| | only thing worse than being dead is poor
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| knew he had papers on him, showing he was
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| | and I've been that for a very long time.
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| a resident, but he'd have a hard time
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| | And soon I'll see if fact is fact or
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| explaining himself with the little
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| | fiction"
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| Spanish he knew to the authorities, and
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| | Vietnam War
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| he did not, DID NOT! What them to find
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| | "We had many losses in Vietnam (the war),
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| out that he really was, not who he was,
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| | hard to take at times, it comes and goes,
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| or what his papers said he was suppose to
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| | comes and goes, like a plague of
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| be.
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| | grasshoppers in the middle of a desert,
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| "I saw you looking at the itinerant men
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| | swarming overhead. He's really just one
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| back at the Cathedral," said the large
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| | more-nothing to sustain him here on
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| man (who seem to be educated but down and
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| | earth, terribly strange, is this night in
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| out himself), "So I got thinking...!"
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| | Huancayo."
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| He showed indifference to his statement
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| | Morning
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| he didn't care what he looked like, he
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| | She received the news her husband was
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| wanted him to vanish. He needed to find a
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| | dead, some kind of a car accident, or
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| place to stay, figure out his next step,
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| | perhaps a robbery (the police said, yet
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| a new plan, he was wet, and getting
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| | were still investigating it), where the
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| hungry, and he had missed the bus, he
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| | robber also took the car. The news was
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| wanted to get out of Huancayo.
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| | received with cramped insides.
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| "Do you want to get out of the city?" the
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| | She gave the death certificated to her
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| voice asked.
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| | lawyer, a few day later, and surprisingly
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| He did not reply. A few more feet, and he
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| | found out she had an insurance policy.
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| could turn about and knock the guy out
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| | She would be rich now, and perhaps have
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| with a solid punch to the side of his
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| | that bowel of shrimp soup, Cuy Colorado,
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| head.
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| | her husband used to tell her he was going
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| "Here," said the voice, holding out a set
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| | to buy her at the most expensive place in
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| of car keys, "I can help you, you can
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| | Lima.
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| help me, even you can go to Bolivia you
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| | Afternoon
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| wan, fro a price of course!"
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| | She looked about for her husband, in the
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| He swathe keys, they looked like car keys
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| | house, calmly-he had not been there all
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| in the feeble light. He felt it was now
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| | night, so she told her sister.
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| safe to stop and confront his ghost, his
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| | She showed no sign of irritation, she
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| second shadow...
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| | didn't listen to the radio, or turn on
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| "Porque! (Why!)" He asked in Spanish.
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| | the TV for news, either, didn't know of
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| | the man run over by his own car. She
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| "Do you think I need to get out of
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| | showed no sign of irritation, and tried
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| dodge?" He had learned a few words in
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| | to show proper etiquette to her sister
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| Spanish, but only a few, but the shadow
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| | throughout the afternoon.
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| seemed to be quite able to carry on a
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| | "Where do you think he went?" asked her
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| good conversation in English.
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| | sister.
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| "Come with me, I can assure you a way out
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| | "After Vietnam I met him, and he was
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| of the city, and on your way to wherever,
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| | exhausted from the war, he had jitters
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| even Bolivia."
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| | all the time. Smoked cigarette after
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| "I'm not in need of a taxi!"
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| | cigarette, he was always unhappy it
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| "Ah, yes...!" then he stared at who he
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| | seemed, and often unfeeling. In the
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| figured was the taxi man, who wasn't
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| | beginning he talked so sweet, he caught
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| really a taxi man, whom didn't seem to be
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| | me off guard, like a fish hooked me and
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| a policeman neither.
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| | brought me into his heart, yet I never
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| ('He must have known it was a holiday
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| | understood him."
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| weekend, and all the buses were full,
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| | "Well then, we must find him," said the
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| that is why he is perhaps offering me a
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| | sister.
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| ride ')
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| | "He made me think he was happy when it
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| He said to the person who he thought was
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| | was just a moment of happiness in our
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| a taxi driver, "Your car is worth its
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| | life. I do realize seldom is one fully
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| weight in gold this evening, I mean,
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| | happy let him go, let him be, and we can
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| early mourning! Whoever have not left,
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| | keep our pleasant moments, I sense they
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| are stuck in this isolated city. I'm sure
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| | are all we got, or will ever have
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| you can get paid double for your
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| | together. It is the best thing we can do
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| services."
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| | for each other, I fear. He keeps
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| (The big shadow didn't fully understand
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| | thinking someone is after him. Not sure
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| the Americano, stared at into his face.)
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| | where it all comes from: a dream perhaps,
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| "I'm not worried about the fare, do you
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| | or illusions, a war thing, you know, that
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| want help me amigo?"
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| | PTS soldiers get, or some unknown reality
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| This surely was his way out, if the large
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| | he never told me."
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| shadow, Peruvian Shadow, was upfront
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| | If Death Had Wings
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| about helping him get out of the city,
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| | If I saw death and death had wings I
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| and it seemed he was sincere, yet he was
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| | know were I would go- Someplace between
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| puzzling. Yes indeed, hope was no the
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| | heaven and hell,-- In the form of an
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| table, as they say, or in his bowel of
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| | eternal soul: Where peace and hunger is
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| soup; with his American passport, he did
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| | no more;
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| not need a visa until he got to the
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| | If I saw death and death had wings That
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| boarder and they would just stamp it
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| | is where I would go-, Yes, that is where
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| automatically there, and the car perhaps
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| | I would go! If only death had wings
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| was full of gas, so he hoped.
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| | Wings, wings, wings I'd put them on my
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| "I want to leave Huancayo before sunrise
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| | soul...!
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| (he murmured:' I hope')."
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| | #1562 12-10-06
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| His arms were tired and wet, lying like a
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| | Epitaph
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| rug hanging on a cloth line downward by
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| | -For the Voice, faring forth from day to
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| his sides.
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| | day was too punitive for him to live
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| "Se Vende (for sale)" said the Voice,
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| | among the human race-(or so it would
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| adding, "the car."
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| | seem). He was not thinking their
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| "How much?" he asked the voice.
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| | thoughts; liken to the perused, but who
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| "You help me, and I'll give you the car,
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| | was the pursuer (?) He had had
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| no dollars involved."
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| | enough-whatever must come did not come
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| This was too good to be true, and He knew
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| | quickly enough to change his mind. The
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| when such deals emerged, there was
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| | staggering thought perhaps became
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| always, a hidden price.
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| | synchronized simultaneously with the
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| "What?" he asked.
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| | other's to run; the invisible pursuer;
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| "Nothing too difficult," the voice
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| | thus, both accomplished their mission
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| implied.
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| | (even though it may seem, sound and be,
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| "What is exactly...nothing?" he asked.
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| | frail and feeble.
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| He looked at the large man, perhaps in
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| | No one awoke either one-of the terror
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| his 50s, but looked more like he was
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| | that evidently griped them. Two engines
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| close to 70, yet he was to agile, for
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| | of self destruction-the effect of their
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| that age. He looked deep into his harsh
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| | actions upon others was little less
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| eyes, hard dark eyes, life had been
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| | remarkable. They halted their lives but
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| unbreakable on him, he concluded, as it
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| | an instant, then sprang forward to finish
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| had been for him, yet we all have a
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| | it, renewed.
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| breaking point, so he pointed out to his
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| | I have no words wherewith to describe the
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| second self.
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| | aftershocks-all I know is all involved
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| This large calm, quiet total stranger
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| | disappeared into the tangled undergrowth
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| could provide his salvation, but the
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| | of the forest of life and death.
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